Poetry In Motion

To Love a Black Man

2008-04-17T22:36:00.001-05:00

‘His skin is dark like mud’

‘You only love him because he’s hung like a horse’

Only a guilty man says

Hiding behind his invisible cloak of fear

Wishing to eradicate a blood stained history

Washing his snow white hands clean

Berating his kin for loving the very mud

He once enslaved and controlled

….

And now that I have my hands all dirtied in said mud

Growing within it love and passion

Fuelling his fire for life

And embracing his instincts for survival

His ingenuity for individuality

And creativity

His animalistic lust…

And visions for the future

I am no longer worthy of your attention.

….

For this white woman

Reminds you of your violent history

By loving the very mud you brought over in ships

Finding beauty in the shackles, chains and whips

For he has overpowered you

In spirit and survival

His lust and passion for life

Is the fuel that you so clearly

Choose to misunderstand

Never looking at it straight in the eye

Fearing the cycle set in motion

History continues to haunt you

As you continue to hide

Your face of racism

Under the invisible cloaks

And your hidden desires

To burn crosses in public

….

For a white women should never

Love the skin as dark as mud.

Alphabet Poetry

2008-04-14T19:52:00.002-05:00

Altogether beautifully colourful
Definate equanimity
Fragrant gifts
Habitual integrity
Jazzy kaleidoscopes
Laudable moments nascent
Opulent perpetuity
Quixotic rhythms satiate time
Unequivocal vivaciousness
Wheedling xrated yearnings
Zealously

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2007-03-19T18:44:00.001-05:00

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Forgiveness

2006-12-11T09:40:00.000-06:00

The howling November rains
Whisper your gentle name
Across my heart, always remains.

In the sanctuary of the night
I feel your love
Forever unchanged.

In the shadows of truth
You keep me safe
From all of the unseen.

The weight of the world
Left me short of happy endings
Forever darkened by November rains.

My thundering fall from grace
You caught to soften the blow
And smiled to ease my soul.

And in your arms forever lives
The story of a life untold
So that freedom may reign.

My tears you forgave
My fears you swept away
In the darkness of these November rains.

I cannot stop believing
As you walk by my side
As mother’s do, singing a song, a lullaby.

I hear you call my name
In the darkness I rest my weary mind
For there is love in the November rains.

So today, I shall dance and rejoice
There is nothing left to explain
It doesn’t matter now… there is no more pain

In these November Rains…

In Rememberance

2006-10-30T16:03:00.000-06:00

Life dealt its hand
The mighty fall to the ground
For the earth to swallow as a whole
Breathing life into barren lands
Beauty growing from its depths.

Life dealt its hand
Leaving in its wake
Disappearing footsteps
Of a childhood not seen
Miraculously, love never dies.

Life dealt a cruel blow
From ashes to dust
Magically vanishing
Existence and memories
But they are never ending.

Life dealt a cruel blow
But not all good things end
Angels watching our every move
Whistling songs of hope
Illuminating the way.

Life dealt her hand
Life is far from done
From above I can still feel you
From below I know you
From the heart I still sense you.

Life dealt her hand
Only to make me strong
In the knowledge of all that is you
For in your wings I am home
And In your embrace, I continue to love.

Dedicated to my mother (née), Leala Marie Jones
February 23, 1947- November 01, 1978

Life may have dealt her hand
Dimming the lights at the break of dawn
Rest in peace my beautiful guardian angel…
For each breath I take,
Your love stands the test of time.

Birthday Poem for My Best Friend

2006-10-24T13:54:00.000-05:00

Happy Birthday Janet!!!

A while ago
We met
But we did not see
Who we were
What was to be

On a day borne of hardship
An incredibly brilliant smile
No more to be hidden
Two worlds collided

Becoming you and me

A friendship forged in tears and laughter
A bond founded on respect
Unconditional acceptance
Enjoying life’s idiosyncrasies

That is you and me

The roads less traveled
Held together with hope and belief
Full of misadventures
Explored joyously

That is you and me

I do not question
How it all came to be
A friendship so faithful
Perhaps even make belief…

That is you and me

I thank my lucky stars
For the gift of you to me
You opened your heart and life
I am more than I ever hoped to be

Because of you and me...

More Than I Can Bare

2006-09-05T14:39:00.000-05:00

So numb from the pain
To give in means certain death for
All my hopes and dreams were truly in vain
Parts of me die with each breath
I look for answers with closed eyes
While the voices in my head scream out WHY?
What did I do to you to make it all a lie?
My heart aches to comprehend
While my mind races the race with no end
Afraid to breath for it will give it life
Afraid to look at the truth in broad daylight
You turned your back on me
After claims of loving me madly
You left me standing in the rain
I then turned to the wrong men
To ease the pain
To hide from the truth
To pretend I did not loose
I believed you and your words
You held me up when I was weak
You made me believe and want life
I let you into my heart, into my world
Made you a big part of my soul
And now I wonder… how could I have been so wrong?
My heart is now parched and deserted
Uninhabitable I have become
I beg to cry the tears that aren’t coming
To give a voice to the anger that won’t show its face
Like a widow, there is no color without you here
But you made sure there is no going back…
Painting for me the face of fear

Please release me from this prison...

For this is far more than I can bare...

Shine

2006-07-18T15:36:00.000-05:00

The night’s gift of freedom
A strange and eerie place
Singing praises of days gone by
Quietly sealing your fate.

Immortal in life’s belief
Steadfast in the night’s thoughts
Faithfully hiding the truth
Impuned to all that is taught.

Hope is the sacrificial lamb
Running down its altar are
Pure and innocent thoughts
So precious, like a new born.

The moon gives the eyes
A better, crisper scene
Stripped naked of all there is
Uninhibited to simply be.

Darkest side of the moon
Lurking in the shadows
Carrying life through
Straight onto the other side.

Papi

2006-07-13T16:25:00.000-05:00

A love that will never die

Forever faithful and true

Forged in tears and fire

A heart will always wait for you

Connected souls

Bonded in understanding

Holding up mirrors

Of images only few can see

Desperate hearts

Craving homes

Fortress wall

But never alone

Gone separate ways

But forever linked

A life wanted and hoped for

Will never come to pass

Doors are closed

Locks are turned

Seeming happiness

But elusive words

Fate will tell

What is to be

A reason, a season or a lifetime

These things of you and me

A love that will never die

Forever faithful and true

Forged in tears and fire

A heart will always wait for you

Introspect

2006-07-13T16:19:00.000-05:00

Round and round we go
On the carousel of life
Reaching out for tomorrow
As today passes us by
Watching the days turn into night

Yearning for a home
To make our fragile lives right
Stuck in waves of emotions
While begging for dry land
Growing fat on fantasy

Building castles in the sand
Impune to our reveries
Praying for salvation
Waiting for forgiveness
While searching for the promise land

Staring out into oblivion
Watching life with blinders on
Listening to faithless men
Stealing your worth
Making it less than the change in your hands

And when it’s all said and done
Can you say you’ve done it all?
Will you truly know who You are
And love all that was and wasn’t to be?
Did you find your goddess within,
And set her free?
Did you find the god within
And embrace the man?

Set yourself free
You innocent soul
Let love lead the way
Let joy guide your path
Towards a brilliant life
Full of infinite possibilities.

Hunger for Life

2006-04-28T15:48:00.000-05:00

Buying miracles on the side streets of life
Hoping to find the fountain of youth
Beggars we are for the serum to happiness
While we fail in the lessons of life
Masochistically punishing the future
By holding onto to the mistakes of the past
Cutting short the possibilities of tomorrow
Buying discounted dreams offered at super stores
Crafted lives found in superficial magazines
While painting by numbers our dreams
Wearing a fashionable amour of fear
Chasing dreams made by fallen angels
Purchasing coal painted the color of gold
Living imaginary lives in a surreal world

Do we dare whisper our hopes and needs
In a world so scarce and shallow?
Can we find our way back to love
Centered in our faith and truth?
Will we live behind the bars of fear
And not release all that burdens the soul?
Lighten the mind and heart
For faithless miracles cannot be bought
Will we continue to beg for the answers
That can only be found on the inside?
Least we forget…
Love is heaven and hatred is hell
The secret to the fountain of youth
And the serum of happiness
Is the beauty that resides within
And having faith in the reflection we see
No matter how it may be perceived.

Wash away your fears and sorrows
For miracles cannot be bought in corner stores
Live today with infinite possibilities
Love yesterday for it is no more
And truth is the foundation upon which all exists
It cannot be stolen, procured or borrowed
For it’s roots are solid and uniquely yours
Forever planted in your soul.

Journey to Love

2006-01-17T08:13:00.000-06:00

One foot in front of the other
I walk this path before me
Unsure of my footing
Bravely moving forward
Occasionally stopping and asking
For directions to perfection
To a cold and shallow world
Left shivering and alone
No one stops to lend a hand
Or to ask my name
Some will take all that you have
While giving very little in return
Sometimes the sun don’t shine
On this path of mine
But I continue to weather the storms
And I walk this path before me
Full of hopes and dreams
Knowing that at the end of my day
I will see the reflection of you
So I continue to ask for
The directions to perfection
Fully knowing it will lead me
Right to you
And what seems so sad and devoid
No longer holds true
In this harsh and cruel world
Full of hope and love
Lighting my way
When I cannot see ahead
And at the end of my day
As I lay my head
My heart rests with you.

Lies

2005-12-09T13:53:00.000-06:00

Empty words spuing forth from your mouth
Echoing vile words, noise I hear
Save them for someone who cares
I’ve heard these lies before

Cheapened words
Reckless actions
Selfish intentions
Harsh reactions

Faced by your reality
The lies you told to hide the truth
You say these words are to keep me safe
From all that you’ve done, to save face

Broken trust
Stolen future
Deceitful dreams
Bleeding hearts

Don’t say one more word
For in my heart, you no longer belong
Forever burning down
The dreams you painted before me

Cheapened words, broken trust
Reckless action, stolen future
Selfish intentions, deceitful dreams
Bleeding hearts; harsh reactions

Take all your lies and the life you lead
Walk out that door and leave
There is nothing sacred left to keep
I’ve lived these lies before

I hope it was worth it…..

To The Beat Of Love

2005-11-16T01:02:00.000-06:00

The look of you
Desires stir inside
The lick of your lips
That smile
Offering me bliss
To the beat of Love
Come take a ride in me
Touching places
Only the night have seen
Skin on skin
Flesh tingles
Hands intertwined
Arched backs
Legs wrapped
Around you
To the beat of Love
Bursting dams
Moisture flows
Hearts pounding
Urges grow
To the beat of Love
Musical thrusts
Bodies swaying
Silken strokes
Carnal feelings
To the beat of Love
Come take a ride in me
Touch me here
Kiss me there
Feel me everywhere
To the beat of Love
Let it be the first and last
Look I see
Touch I feel
Urge I want
Desire I need
Ultimate surrender
To the beat of Love

Untitled

2005-10-30T23:11:00.000-06:00

Can you captivate my mind

And take hostage my time?

Can you look into my eyes

And read between the lines?

Can you hold my hand

And see all there is to be seen?

Can see you touch my skin

And trust all that is yet known?

Can you hold onto my heart

And make me feel safe?

Can you see me as beautiful

When I feel I can no longer go on

And still have faith in tomorrow?

Can you trust my love

And have faith in the outcome?

Can you see me for all that I am

And still want to wake up next to me?

Carnal Pleasures

2005-10-30T16:01:00.000-06:00

Layin in the dark

I crave your touch

The scent of you

Lingering all around me

I ache for your kiss

I ache for your thrust

Needing you from light to dusk

The memory you

Carved in my soul

Haunting the night

As I lay here without you

I bleed just to feel

That all of you is real

The carress of your mind

Like thunder in my soul

Arousing my inner senses

Bringing me to life

Blank Pages, Empty Sheets

2005-10-24T03:02:00.000-05:00

Ever so fragile
Held together by a string
So fine the naked eye cannot see
In heart made of glass
Emotions are felt, raw and fierce
Realities are shattered
Everything crashing to the ground
The resounding thump heard far and wide
Piece by piece
I pick myself up
Attempting to put back together
All that I've known and
All that I've believed
And as time passes by
Truths are revealed
Testing my faith
Opening my eyes
Crushing my hopes
Leaving it all behind
Chapters are closing
Blank pages remain
Faith not yet renewed
Life will never be the same
I am tired of the lies and
Sick of the game
Decisions are being made
Reshaping my future
Remembering the past
The only thing left is
To find strength
In world that tried to destroy me
Forsaking my name
Ever so fragile
Thru anger and tears
I climb this mountain
Blinded by love and faith
That someday I may find
Peace and tranquility
That someday in the future
I will be safe
Love has been painted with lies
Born to me without grace
desperately needing
To close that door
Locking away forever
The deceitful smiles and all her lies
Throwing away that key
Stop filling my head with
Fairy tale stories
For it is a life that does not exist
In awe and fear
Tears running down my face
I barely hold this pen
Choices being made
Starring down at this blank page
About to write my new life
Where am I going?
Who will I see?
The past has been painful and full of lies
Will the future... set me free?

For My Inner Child

2005-09-26T16:58:00.000-05:00

Take hold of my hand, little girl
And take a walk with me
My heart will always be true to you
In spite of all you've done
And all you've seen
No need to hover in the corner
Fear no longer exists
Take my hand little child
And learn what love is
Smile and be free
I will always be there for you and me
Dance a while to the sound of your heart beat
To the music of freedom and peace
Take my hand, beautiful girl
For it is yours to keep
I will fight hard to keep you safe
Erasing the scars left on your memory
Broken promises, you will no longer cry
Pain will no longer be your guide
Burry your sorrows and tears
Craddle in my arms, little child
For with me, you will always smile
And when we fall
We will catch each other
I will be waiting for you as you wait for me
Take my hand little one
And know, we are beautiful
We are still very much alive.

Vampire

2005-09-21T14:29:00.000-05:00

I cannot stay hypnotized, within your grip
Your religion, immobilized, I can no longer worship
The heart I gave, a sacrificial lamb it became
For your morbid viewing pleasure
You drained me of my lifeline

Before you I will no longer stand
Within your gaze, I can no longer stay
Your cloak of darkness, engulfing your rage
Within the walls of this Babylon, I refuse to remain
Down your darkened hallways, you’ve taken me
I can no longer Be, it is suffocating
In this space, it is far too hard to breathe

I have lost all faith, in you I no longer believe
Even with my unconditional love, I cannot save
Within the walls of your religion
A slave I refuse to be
Solace will be found outside your sanctuary
The monkey on my back, you will no longer be
I can no longer stay within and outside these walls
An emotional vampire you have been
My smile and inner fire are nowhere to be seen
And like a thief in the night I will flee
Towards self-love, towards serenity
Worshiping your religion, I set myself free.

Lost

2005-09-20T00:08:00.000-05:00

Is it possible for some one
To come and rescue me
From this disaster life seems to be
Is it even remotely feasible
To feel the love that once resided
Inside
How did I get so lost along the way
Seemingly so strong
Crumbled at your feet
No stone left unturned
Desolation, eaten alive
The burden I carry
Weighing me down
Is far too heavy to carry on my own
Where did my light go, the Sag’s flame
Burnt out long ago, when you called my name
Now I am left here standing, covered in shame
The darkness swallowed me whole
Drowning in the darkness of your despair
Pushing and pulling
I managed to break from from your current
Only to be swept away by life’s turbulence
When I look in the mirror all I see
Is my father’s reflection looking back at me
How can this be
How did I vear so far off
Nothing but poor decisions
Living a year of confusion
When do I get back my smile
When do I ever return to being
The woman that once was happy and free
Will I ever know what that truly means
To be wanted & accepted for the woman I am and can be
Will I ever learn to be these things… for me
Where did I go…
This simply cannot not possibly be
What fate had in store for me.

Father

2005-09-15T15:20:00.000-05:00

How do I break free
From the lies that spewed from your mouth
For all I ever wanted to be
Was your daughter
Each year and each day of each month
For all I wanted was a father
Supported in love and understanding
Someone who is never bending
Instead I got to taste my own blood
At the fist of the woman you called wife
Forever testing my faith in God
For you were entrusted as the protector of my life
Intead I got vile looks and cruel words
Your anger, self hatred and manipulations
Stealing my youth and faith in men
You did things no father should ever do
Blamed a child instead of looking at you
Hurting a boy for your own sexual exploration
Insulting your daughters with labels and lies
Forever imprinted, impacting all our lives
How do I know who real men are?
For all I hear are your lies, bearing your scars
I don't ever want a man like you
I have lived for too long in pain, just as you do
I want to break free from this vicious grip
I refuse to be the image of you
I want to know true love without the lies
To be trusted, seen and cared for unconditionally
No more games, I reclaim my life.
You are not sorry, for you deny
All that was done, ruining our lives
You cannot stand to see your own reflection
I have lived for too long
In the shadows of your deception
Cowards, liars and theives
Wasting my time, robbed me of security
I do not like the reflection I see
For its mirror shows the imprint of you
All your issues and insecurities
Destroying all the goodness found in youth
How do I change this toxicity?
This programming, all your negativity?
How do I change and close my heart?
How do I find my way, alone in the dark?
You were suppose to be my dad
The protector, defender and provider of your seed
To show me all these things
Instead I am left here alone
Holding my inner child's hand
Angry, frightened, fearful and sad
For the wounds you created, still bleed
For I lost a mother but my father
Still you couldn't never be

Goodbye Justin... Goodbye Dreams

2005-09-13T11:30:00.000-05:00

Visions of me created in your mind
Only leaves the potential for greatness behind
You say you saw me through smoken’d mirrors
Made me a believer, I had no fears
But you only saw your own visions of me
Of what you wanted Her to be
Not once hearing or looking at the real ME
Shattering all hope thru your expectations
Pressures to find the one great love of your life
I have been down that road before
It cut me wide open with a jagged knife
But today I am nobody’s fool
So take your life, live and learn
For your Eve, you will find as you yearn
Finally see the beauty she is as she stands
Perhaps alone, in her Garden of Eden
But my heart closed it’ll be
Walls standing tall
A mighty fortress once again cold and empty
The end of a dream, the end to it all
I will not wear that mask

You need from the image of Her to feel
For it is not me, it is far from real
I cannot compete with a vision of Me
For in that mirage, I will never be real,
I could never simply BE
All that you’d hoped for and dreamed
Open your eyes to the real world
For in love and life
There is so much to be shared
Wash away the dreams you’ve made of me
And maybe only then you will find your Eve
And live in love forever and a day

Poems ... about Me...

2005-09-09T21:34:00.000-05:00

I have been here a short while

Met alot of people that make me smile.

Made some friends that are dear.

Even stoped in peterborough for a beer.

My first week sure was great.

I quickly had a date.

So many girls so little time.

I thought talking to to many was a crime.

I stopped and thought, there was no way.

A girl could get to know me while dealing with such an array.

So i took my time and paid attention.

But, really was not too many to mention.

The threads is where I noticed her.

Did not take me long to be sure.

That this girl was one of a kind.

She was just blowing my mind.

I kinda followed her posts.

Not shying away from replying to most.

We kind of seen eye to eye.

But, I think she was seeing some guy.

When her crush list came to me.

I was so amazed to see.

That this girl was crushing me as well.

I quickly responded back answering the bell.

This girl gave me such a glow.

I tried to look for some faults you know.

But all I seen was beauty in every way.

Now, soon is our big day.

I see her so strong

I am definitely not wrong

Before i take my first breath in the morning she is in my head.

And the last thought before I go to bed.

I presented this poem to all of you.

Everything I said is so true.

I really hope she works for me.

I sure you all know her as K.C

~by my sweety.. Justin.. posted in the forums of POF...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Justin that was beautiful

I hope all works out and your life feels full

K.C has a heart of gold and I'll tell it like this so...

Listen up close, this is a true story

Of the first person who ever defended me

I made a post, it was hated by most

did I really care? ummmm, nope!

But people got mad at the example I made

Then out of nowhere K.C came to my aid!

I reffered to some women as being bi-polar

Everyone freaked that I was way out of order

So there you have it, a real true story

to put a smile on both your faces to bring out the glory

of two people getting hooked up from the pof sorority

Or maybe a fraternity, well which ever it may be

Be true to each other and may you last an eternity!

I know it was short and NO you can't retort

I wish both of you the best of luck,

I'm done Kobie just shut the hell up!!!!!!!

~From my friend Kobie, so moved by Justin's poem to me!!!

You

2005-09-07T12:14:00.000-05:00

You came into my life
Unexpectedly
Your kind words
Of wisdom
Is the sweetest melody
Within your grasp
I can safely Be
Within your gaze
I long to Be
Within your touch
I simply need to Be
You have seen my pain
You understand my past
While, gently,
You hold my heart
You do not feed
My fears
You make love
To my mind
I feel safe in
Your heart
I feel desired in
Your mind
I am beautiful in
Your eyes
I am simply wonderful
Within your soul
Can you possibly be
What I feel as truth?
Can you possibly be
The right One for me?
The gods have finally
Blessed me today
For they have shown me…
You.

~ Dedicated to "Justin"... a wonderful man... a kindred spirit... my safe haven... a beautiful place to fall... May this be... all that we hope for... ~

Untitled

2005-09-05T17:50:00.000-05:00

Instinctively

Let go of my hand

Standing on the edge

With no where to go

Suffering

Broken

Neurotic

Hiding behind the walls

In my mind

Crippled without

Knowledge

Fear is my crutch

Hey .. you holy men

Can you save me

With your words

And the blood of martyrs?

Disturbing thoughts

Held together without hope

The words of redemption

Preached by greed

Let go of my hand

I cannot lead

When blind

Corrupted

Where is your saviour?

Standing on the edge

Of insanity

Held together

By serenity

White Lies

2005-09-04T15:37:00.000-05:00

Visions of the future

In front of me

Knowledge of the past

Behind me

What was taught as truth

By holy men of faith,

Greed and manipulation

Imprisons my soul

Robbed me of freedom

I don't want to know

For there is no love

Found in those white lies

So what do I know

That once was

Turned my legs to stone

For there is no freedom

Found in these white lies

I don't want to know

For I walk alone

Held down by false belief

Offers nothing but visions

Visions of a future

Out of reach

Not within graspe

I don't want to know

Leave me be

Dear Mom

2005-09-03T17:33:00.000-05:00

The day you died
I remember so vividly
A child robbed of
Love, protection and peace
No one to help me as I
Silently screamed of pain
No one to hold my hand
To tell me I would be OK
In violence, starved of
Your touch

I prayed to the gods above
To just once see your face
"Come take me away,
Let me be with you.
I am not wanted here
I am not loved by them.
I miss you mommy,
Please come save me."
I still cry those tears
I still know that pain
You never came
But I knew you were
Near on wings of butterflies
I don't remember your touch
But I know the touch of fists
I beg for the pain to stop
"Please come save me.
Please come take me away.
I want to live, have no fear.
I want to feel, not tears.
I want to see, and know you
For only then, I might know me."

The Touch of My Hand

2005-08-18T16:46:00.000-05:00

Erotic needs
Forbidden pleasures
Hedonistic desires
Salacious thoughts

Quivering urges
Demanding touches
Lingering fingers
Streaming rivers

Self-gratification
Unknown depths
Forgotten feelings
Yearning moisture

Fiery emotions
Delirious sensation
Enigmatic lust
Ravenous love

Insatiable yearning
Escalating rush
Ultimate release
Complete surrender

Pictures

2005-08-10T22:20:00.000-05:00

Memories
Scattered before me...
On pieces of

Paper...
Images
Evoking the past...
Different hues
Of colors...

Reflecting back
What once was...
Was it really
That bad?
Was it really
That good?
Moments in time
Stolen
Engraved forever...
Eliciting wants
And needs...
Can it still be?
Longing for
The past...
Is it still
Picture perfect??
Or is it
Truly Evil?
Illusions
On paper
5X8...
Hidden away
In books...
Placed on
Dusty Shelves
The past...
Remebered and
Perceived ...
In pictures

End of Innocence

2005-08-01T00:22:00.000-05:00

Jaded perceptions
Childhood dreams
Looking at life
Thru rose colored glasses
Fantasies
Ideal means
Held up high
Idolized
Life lived in cystal bowls
Only to be shattered
By time
Winds blowing about
Changes
To all that once was
Known and believed
Innocent desires
At a glance seem light
Now tainted shades of
Grey
Defiled dreams
Blemished reveries
Stolen thoughts
Unfaithful youth
Destroyed enchantment
Childhood lost

A Poem About Me from LastPoet

2005-07-26T20:00:00.000-05:00

your more beautiful then a single rose peddle
that lays in the grass in a beautiful meadow
i dont know how i could ever be your fello
but i would like to say hello
only in person
before i decided that my situation has worsen
and fly off to another place
one that isn't so full of haze
cause i dont like living in a daze
in a weird maze
but you really are great and creative
almost gives me a motive
makes me wonder sort of
if i should take and move back home
jsut so i can call you on the phone
and listen to your sweet soft voice
leaving me feeling like i aint alone

~Tremor

Ghosts

2005-07-26T13:30:00.000-05:00

An incredible beauty
Even the gods shy away
Their desiring glances...
But only on the outside

Surrounded by fear
And darkness within
Hunger for love
Void and empty on the inside

Stops short at success
Holding others hostage
In emotional battles
Killing those who once stood side by side

Shackled to the past
Wanting of the future
Sabbotage all the good
In a love affair with failure

Hold up that mirror
And see the reflection
Honesty at last
Is where Love truly begins.

Sagittarius

2005-07-22T14:22:00.000-05:00

Carnal
Habitual
Raw
Tender

Inspiring
Constant
Knowledgeable
Unforgettable

Lost
Compassionate
Fire
Passionate

Strength

Animalistic

Vengeful

Desirable

Illuminated

Enlightened

Brilliant

Spiritual

Over the Rainbow

2005-07-18T16:05:00.000-05:00

Over the rainbow
Wish upon stars
Touches the soul
Softens hardened hearts
Afraid to trust
In as much
Dreams may burst
Hope might die
But desparately wanting
For believeable feelings
Dreams come true
A wonderful world
Might possibly be
Purest of hearts
Holding scarred hands
Troubles be dropped
Like lemon drops
Falling from skies
Hearts eagerly burst
Like floating bubbles
Flying high above
In blue skies
Please don't hide
Dare to dream
Watch needs bloom
You are worthy
To be loved
Over that rainbow
Way up high

~
For JN... a best friend always and always...

Let those blue birds fly hun... dream big and full of color

Hope

2005-07-14T14:01:00.000-05:00

Haunting shadows lurking
Nightmares and dreams
Disappear in the bright light of day

Darkness is no longer
Hope and serenity abound
Because I finally understand

Freed from the shackles of the past
Breathing deeply without aid
A new sense of belonging settles upon me

Came out of hiding
Farewells and closures completed
Taking back control of my life

Infinite possibilities
Crowned with beautiful jewels
Forever a Queen, ruling glory and hope

No prisoners, no sorrows
Legends in the making
Beautiful past but powerful tomorrows.

Love

2005-07-11T14:15:00.000-05:00

Living in perfect symmetry
Our bodies felt against one another
Hearts intertwined with each feathered touch
Can this be far more than lust?

With each breathe taken, I am home
It is the sweetest tastes you leave in my mouth
Traces of you felt forever and a month
Can this be what fairy tales are about?

Swallowed by your glance is where I belong
Holding time hostage, locking the door
For with you, I’d wait years til my days are done
I will wait forever, are you my kingdom come?

The whispers of your voice tingles my soul
For at the core, I know who you are
With each look, I come undone, catapulted by truth
Have you decided if you want me by your side?

With each step we take, there are no mistakes
There is no need to try, for it all feels so right
Answering the call of our hearts and the hunger of our bodies
Can we take the risks and stand by each other side?

Cyber Space

2005-07-10T22:31:00.000-05:00

With understanding, our hearts collided
Emotionally haunting one another
Limited by space, screens and sounds…

Thoughts of your lips and embrace
Feeling the tenderness of your touch
Imagined with each key stroke

Lust guiding your impulses from glimpses of a picture
Minds swirling with unknowns and uncertainties
Restricted by voices at the end of the receiver

Will I ever see your face and feel your touch?
Will I get to taste your lust and enjoy the rush?
Will we be forever confined by space, screens and sounds?

Belonging

2005-07-05T13:05:00.000-05:00

All I want is a sense of belonging...
Instead of being here on my own.
To be part of something far greater than...
An existence for one, to no longer be alone.
I've been tempted with such a life in the past...
Only to be a fool and not understand.
That it really could have been my last..
Chance at what I desire and long for the most.
Recent acquisitions only add to the dissatisfaction...
And the frustration that resides,
Continues to simmer such emotions inside.
I want that feeling and to belong...
To a love and life far greater than my own.
I want to feel and participate...
To share my all, to no longer be alone.

Illuminated

2005-07-04T01:30:00.000-05:00

Mornings aren't for the faint of heart
As the nights are for the darkened souls...
There are no shadows to hide behind
Only blinding bright lights to illuminate...
Forces of nature to be reckoned with
Draws most like moths to a flame...
For it is a beauty so powerful
That only few can maintain...
And yet, it is so complex
Within it's simplicity...
Fears, anger and hatefulness
Surround our careful moves...
The pangs of release and tenderness
Survives within our consciousness...
But only the faithful and loyal heart
Cannot be bought, budged or moved...
For it is at the core of our souls
That shelter is love, healing and truth.

Broken Trust

2005-07-04T00:57:00.000-05:00

Is it really that complicated?
Or is this what was fated?
A destiny so very unfulfilled?

The tears of mistrust have ran its course...
Sadness rained a thunderous storm..
Is it the Karmic wheel that was set in motion?

Like the hand of a grandfather clock...
I am reminded by the chimes of a life going by...
And of lessons I am failing to learn...

Have I simply misjudged or miscalculated?
As I continue to trust those far more jaded...
And forgo being master of a life not yet adorned?

The Price of Fear

2005-07-03T23:38:00.000-05:00

Like the walls of Jericho tumbling to the ground
And the sins of Babylon, she can no longer be found

Like the plight of Lot's wife aching for the past
Or the fate of Sampson, where strength could not last

Like that of Job's faith, tested beyond compare
Nailed to the pain, the cross I bare

A master to no one, will it all disappear?
I am my own Armagedon, by living in fear.

Everytime

2005-07-02T13:30:00.000-05:00

Can you not see this white flag
To my heart, I have surrendered?
And when I lay, I close my eyes
With every thought, I combust like fire..

When I feel my inner thighs
With every thought of you, I quiver
And in the darkness of the night
With every kiss, you put me under

With every touch, I feel your desires
Within that moment, there is no other
And how can you not see this white flag
For you have my body, I have surrendered

Self-Analysis

2005-06-30T10:10:00.000-05:00

Exhaustion
Depravation
Retaliation
Revelation

Insightful
Beautiful
Vengeful
Insatiable

Restless
Sexiness
Gentleness
Successfulness

Intelligent
Compassionate
Independent
Dependent

Creative
Reflective
Addictive
Assertive

These are the thing I see
When I look in the mirror and believe.

Impossible Dreams

2005-06-29T18:46:00.000-05:00

The lonliness that is felt inside
Standing by watching hope burn

Who can reach in and that key turn
The swtich to all the beauty that resides?

Is it such an impossible dream
To be together, on the same page, at the same time?

Can the lonliness that is felt inside
Be replaced with a love that will never die?

Violated

2005-06-29T18:00:00.000-05:00

Today I feel stiffled
Today I am cold
Why do you continue to walk
In and out of my world?

My heart feels caged
And falling to pieces
Today you sadistically play
Invading my thoughts

What's mine is mine
Can't you see?
No one else can change
What cannot be seen

I beg for my freedom
To be set free
From the shackles of the past
And to simply be me

Needs of the Body

2005-06-28T22:50:00.000-05:00

I will let go of my senses
To see your face

I will touch your body
To feel my soul

I will look at your nakedness
To taste my own

I will feel you from the inside
Proud, loving and strong

In the throws of passion
Is where I belong

I am dying of hunger, so feed me now,
I am insatiable for your love

Sins of the Body

2005-06-28T12:40:00.000-05:00

Starving, hungry, feed me
For I’ve got an appetite for your love

From behind
I want to feel you

From above
I want to see you

From below
I want to taste you

From the side
I want to know you

From everywhere
I want to hear you

Raw and passionate
Flames and fire

Hearts and bodies pounding
Animalistic, adulterated desires

There is no rhyme or reason
For these carnal thoughts

Just feed me now
For I’ve got an appetite for your love

He Who Once Was

2005-06-28T07:09:00.000-05:00

The heart aches and breaks
Dying a thousand deaths
Reaching for the the future
While shackled to the past

The homeless heart
Trying to catch it's breath
The vast emptiness inside
That echoes your name

Starving for your touch
But memories forgotten
Inprints made on the heart
Swept away by borders and fears

Darkened souls
Enlightened by love
Leaving behind speckles of dust
On the rear view mirror of life

Reaching for the future
While shackled to the past
Hunger pains remain
But our love could never last

~Single~

2005-06-27T21:42:00.000-05:00

Can you blame the girl
For wanting to be seen and heard
As the woman and child she is inside?

Can you blame the girl
For her hunger and yearning
And her wanting of a heart to lay by her side?

Can you blame the guy
For his lust and passion
As he watches the days, go by and by?

Can you blame the guy
For his desires to be needed
And yearns for a heart to lay by his side?

Friendship

2005-06-26T21:37:00.000-05:00

In the darkness there is light, under the shadow of the moon
Like a guiding hand, held out to show me the way
Honesty and truth penetrates the core of my soul
To bind the wounds that are raw and tender

The softened words that heal the weary heart
Like the comfort of a mothers unconditional loving arms
A refuge they are on stormy nights
It is but only a breathe away

Parched in the desert, hunger pains remain
Revitalized by knowledge and compassion
Lead to an oassis on a journey full of mirages
Where the truth is set free to fly amoungst the eagles

In the darkness there is light, under the shadow of the moon
Like a loving hand - held out for me to cheerish
Friendships forged in stone and lasting
For a beautiful season... is what I feel when I am here with you.